Showing posts with label goodbyes. Show all posts
Showing posts with label goodbyes. Show all posts
losing the ass
previously... it was
'i keep losing weight bt it keeps finding me'
now... it's
i've lost both the weight and the ass...
i miss those bumps that helped fill in my jeans everytime...
i miss the cushion feel i gt when i sit on stone-chairs...
i miss the ass charm i used to possess as i stood amongst ass-less chinese girls...
(i *sadly* dun haf that magic anymo!)
pffft....
i miss my ass... :(
last
so packing's finally done
and i managed to squeeze in my life-treasures into two bags :)
pretty gifted in packing ey...
ok i lied...(heh!)
i'm no houdini!
tho i wish i was... for bubbles' sake... :(
kinda 'tumpang' some space frm my parents' echolac luggage
and err the brown bag's packed wif goodies like maggi mee n nescafe
wad can i say, MALAYSIANS will always be malaysians rite!
guess i'm a bit more mentally prepared today then i was yesterday...
(no choice oso la)
ate my last kolo mee this morning...
and gave bubbles my last (and loooongest) hug just now...
meeting close friends who all insisted on sending me off at the airport later... :)
eva's boarding the same flight all the way to heathrow wif moi...
nice got kawan!
so here's GOODBYE and cya soon in a new continent everybody ;)
Leaving
so here's my schedule (for those who's been asking)...
i can't believe i'm leaving... and to be honest i'm kinda apathetic on this...
i can't believe i'm leaving... and to be honest i'm kinda apathetic on this...the excitement has been neutralized by the worrying thoughts of going to a foreign place and the need to be independent now!
i mean INDEPENDENCE is nothing like ambling down a park... no sir!
and i dun wan to leave my family, dog and friends for self-cooked "cuisines" and cleaning the toilet!
and oh God, i pray to you so i won't fall prey to temptations with my new found freedom in a city that has been voted top 8 best night life in the world...
oh god oh god oh god!
missing heath
went on a movie date with stef yesterday and we were entertained by the vividly breathtaking gotham city, the wonderfully good against evil script, the ultra cool batmobile and gadgets and a certain nightmarish laughter... HEHEHE HOHOHO HAHAHA
Ledger's hair-rising performance as the Joker is without a doubt one of cinematic's most demonic villains, so much so that the past two Jokers before him just looked lk... welll... clowns!
and behind that psychotic, mass murdering clown with painted white face, black eyeshadow and scarred mouth was a brilliant actor whose soul and talent will be greatly miss. it's almost depressing that the dark knight will be his last film but Heath's performance as the Joker was an ideal pinnacle before closing the curtains to both career and life!
the trees along the road that drives me home
06/03/08
these are the trees along the road that drives me home.
these trees refresh my mornings and are the encouragement for the journeys ahead...
and as these trees emerge while driving home, i know that i'll be home safe n sound soon
bt who would think that these trees could take the lives of a 9 and 8 year old.
the elder dying at the moment of impact, the younger 2 days after.
it was like any other mondays, but their mother decided to make the last dash to school on the long winding and slippery road for they were already late.
a second was how long the car went out of control. bt it was enough to flip the car over to the opposite road before hitting two trees and plunging into the drain.
the mother is still in critical condition.
the sons will never make it to school, nt anymore.
who would think that the trees that calm my very soul everyday could turn deadly in just a second.
on the same disturbing issue, a friend got into an accident yesterday. and with all God's blessings, she was ok. nt a single bruise nt a single cut... only a shaken soul.
so here's a lil message to all drivers on rainy days lk this...
what's the rush? sometimes being late isnt the worst of all consequences.
requiem for the soul
i'm sinking into oblivion. i woke up early today. sat on the bed and had empty thoughts. i look at dawn. i waited for the tears to come. NO TEARS. i'm sinking into oblivion. today is the funeral and i'm here and not there. today is the last day... the last chance i can see her. bt i'm here and NOT THERE. i'm sinking into oblivion. i'm at the state where everything is blurry. i'm tired but i cant sleep. i want to cry but there are no tears. i feel sad but i'm not sorrow. i feel hopeless but yet i'm not sure. i'm sinking into oblivion. i'm at the state where i dunno myself. and i have empty thoughts. i am no longer aware of the surroundings. i'm in the world of an unknown. i'm sinking deeper. i'm no longer conscious of what is happening. the birds are chirping bt i hear silence. the sun is shinning brightly bt i see darkness. i'm sinking into oblivion. i'll shut my eyes and i'll look for the light and i'll pray and i'll look for that familiar face and i'll picture her in my mind and i'll cry deep inside for her and i'll tell her that i'll miss her and i'll tell her how muc i love her and that i'm sorry that i cant be there and that i know she'll understand and that i know her spirits will be with me no matter what and i'll give her my last hug and my last kiss and my requiem for her soul...
i'm awake now... the tears in my eyes woke me up... i'm awake now... and i'm crying!
i will always love you grandma
(1921- 06.04.2007)
21 grams
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they say that at the exact moment of death, you're 21 grams lighter...
cause that's when your soul leaves your body...
cause that's when your soul leaves your body...
grandma, please get well soon.
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